January 23, 2011 late!

When I was in third grade I had to do a project on another country. I desperately wanted to be a stand-out kid so while my classmates were all writing about France and Italy, I was writing about the country of... Ecuador! Talk about a stand-out. A wonderful country, yes, but not a lot of research books in the elementary school libabry. It turned out to be an awesome project! My mom and I made little Ecuadorian flags and passports for everyone. My mom even brought in coconut, mangos and starfruit for the class to try. Anyway, I'm not writing this because I wanted to brag on my awesome project skills. I'm writing this because I'm reminded that God is so great at weaving our lives together! Right now I'm starring at a small map of South America with a tiny airplane moving towards Ecuador! That project made me fall in love with this world and it's people; God's world and God's people. I'm headed for Peru to serve these people whom are totally and awesomely loved by God! And He placed it in my heart so long ago to do a simple project on Ecuador. I'm flying over oceans filled with the works of His majestic hands; fish, plants, creatures that could not be dreamed up by mere humanity. What beauty this world of God holds!!! Soon lights will begin to sparle below me and for every light there is a life filled with such beauty; so much so that the Lord died to set that beauty free from it's bondage of sin. Lord, help me be apart of the light! Helpe become the salt and the light; the catalyst to bring someone to Your feet. Thank you Lotd for placing my body and soul on this airplane! Thank you for Your grace and mercy!thank You for Ecuador!

South America! It's like America but South!

I'm on the bus. I made on the bus. God was with us this morning in such an amazing way! He allowed for Drew and I to praise together this morning with hands held high and hearts open to His Spirit. Tears were streaming!!! Blessed tears! My heart is not sad, it's over flowing with peace and joy! Amazing! The Lord IS the Great comforter! I am overjoyed to be on this bus! OVERJOYED! I will miss my family. I will miss my son. I spend a majority of my day job helping and ministering to the sick, and, yes the dying. I speak with women who are preparing to say goodbye to their wrong families for the rest of their children's lives; this little trip is nothing compRed to that! The Lord had to watch His Holy Son die, for me and my family. Compared to THAT this is nothing! THAT is why I am ON THIS BUS! Yea!!! Oh, I just love it. Drew, if by chance you do read this, remember your "assignment". Please live for Christ. Please help me lead our sweet Aiden to Him! I love you.

Momma drama?

I have been running all day preparing for Peru, shopping, packing,praying. All dayi've been excited, sittin' on ready. Then... I hear my Aiden's little voice saying "momma, momma where are you?" I answered and he came running into the kitchen laughing with arms wide open. Now I have this deep sense of dread for next Sunday! I had found peace and joy in leaving him, now I have this deep sense of sadness. I think everyone knows the feeling of loving people so much it's like you crave being near them, that's how I am with Drew and Aiden. However, that is also how I feel about my Jesus! If I am called to Peru to be closer to God then I will "climb that mountain", literally and figuratively. My mantra for my trip has been, "just a week away from Aiden could mean an eternity for someone else's child" afterall, I know my time is not my time at all, it's God's time. And it's time for me to be His hands and feet!

Opened heart

I always thought that I had this huge open heart. I thought I was this good person because I don't do bad things and I do some comfortable good things. Oh, how the Lord has been opening my heart to real life. Have I just woken up? I've been feeling so unprepared for this mission trip but couldn't figure out why. All of my check boxes are checked (not my vaccinations, they are stuck in Hotlanta because of ice), but I've been doubting myself. Doubting my abilities. Doubting why God chose me and/or if He chose me. What if I just chose myself and said it was God? I prayed a sincere prayer. "Lord, what am I doing and am I truely doing this in Your name?"Over the last 24 hours I have been reminded that God is God, he is sovereign. I have never really applied that word to MY life before, and just nodded my head in agreement when other people used it. Now, I just want to tell everyone. God IS sovereign!!! He just is! His thoughts are higher than my thoughts, His ways higher than my ways. I don't even know the answer to my prayer yet, but I know that fact. After thirteen years of having faith in God and in my Lord Jesus Christ I have a deep stirring in my heart and I am alive for Him! YAY!!!

2 weeks out...

So, I'm listening to God. I'm being a little "radical". I'm leaving for Peru in two weeks. Yup, in two weeks I'll be on a bus traveling to Huaraz Peru. I'm leaving my two year year old son and my husband. I know, doesn't see all that extreme, but for me it is. I kind of have a cushy little life here in Macon. I have a routine. I have a life, it's centered around playhouse Disney and Lalalala Elmos world, but it's there, somewhere... Let's be honest, until three months ago the closest I ever felt called to South America was to an Andes candy (yumm)I love travel, and I always said "if He calls then I'll go", but I never thought I would actually GO! Now I know, now I have my money and my passport and soon I'll have my vaccinations, (more to come...), and I'm going. I am going to Peru. I'm going for God. We'll see where he takes me.