Momma drama?

I have been running all day preparing for Peru, shopping, packing,praying. All dayi've been excited, sittin' on ready. Then... I hear my Aiden's little voice saying "momma, momma where are you?" I answered and he came running into the kitchen laughing with arms wide open. Now I have this deep sense of dread for next Sunday! I had found peace and joy in leaving him, now I have this deep sense of sadness. I think everyone knows the feeling of loving people so much it's like you crave being near them, that's how I am with Drew and Aiden. However, that is also how I feel about my Jesus! If I am called to Peru to be closer to God then I will "climb that mountain", literally and figuratively. My mantra for my trip has been, "just a week away from Aiden could mean an eternity for someone else's child" afterall, I know my time is not my time at all, it's God's time. And it's time for me to be His hands and feet!